the more I realize just how much I am going to struggle with growing old gracefully. Now the truth is, I'm not actually that old yet. But it feels like it when I look around and see my former students raising their beautiful babies... and my own kiddo is married and the potential of my grandmotherhood isn't that far off. That's ridiculous to even say outloud! But I'm not old. Even though my conversations with friends often touch on our ailments. And perimenopause. And the tho